I just mentioned that I wouldn’t maintain this blog and here I am writing again, but then again you should never take my words for granted because alas I am but a woman and instability is within my hormonal imbalanced nature.
I assume I have something to say and thus pouring what I have in writing but I must say that I have nothing thought out, or no structure as to what you are currently reading. I didn’t sit down and push a button demanding myself to process all that comes through my brain. It simply flows and I don’t mind that it might not make sense to a lot of you for I see it as a release to the stress that is inside me.
There was a point in time where I thought that I was so eloquent in my writing but now days I doubt my self to such a degree that I stopped posting. I still write random rambles and poems but they do not measure up in my eyes as to what truly can be called masterpieces.
Am I just going on and rambling again? So be it but there is too much going on that the need to simply write anything is greater than me. I have tolerated love lost in many forms that losing my poise is writing would not justify the feelings I have endured.
There are those of you out there who would go through a rainbow of emotions for my sake, please don’t. I don’t need sympathy, understanding or justification. This is my space to do what I please with and I have chosen to say what I wish and blabber all that I want. Don’t think that you understand everything that I may be implying because I know for a fact that I do not understand my own validation to what I am saying at the moment.
You need to know me to understand that what I write here does not actually imply that I am living through the emotionalisms that are portrayed in my writing. On the contrary I may be just saying things that come from a deeper chasm, but does not implicate my current state. I am a person who can overcome a lot and consider every path a lesson learnt. Those who cannot break me cannot harm me in anyway because I do not give them implications to scratch the surface of the person I am.
I am not conceited yet I am comfortable with the person I have become. I don’t need the approval of those around me to value my worth. I am content with my life, though it my have not been the life I had expected for myself it sure has turned to my reality.
Excuse my ramble, but as I said this is my space.
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I assume I have something to say and thus pouring what I have in writing but I must say that I have nothing thought out, or no structure as to what you are currently reading. I didn’t sit down and push a button demanding myself to process all that comes through my brain. It simply flows and I don’t mind that it might not make sense to a lot of you for I see it as a release to the stress that is inside me.
There was a point in time where I thought that I was so eloquent in my writing but now days I doubt my self to such a degree that I stopped posting. I still write random rambles and poems but they do not measure up in my eyes as to what truly can be called masterpieces.
Am I just going on and rambling again? So be it but there is too much going on that the need to simply write anything is greater than me. I have tolerated love lost in many forms that losing my poise is writing would not justify the feelings I have endured.
There are those of you out there who would go through a rainbow of emotions for my sake, please don’t. I don’t need sympathy, understanding or justification. This is my space to do what I please with and I have chosen to say what I wish and blabber all that I want. Don’t think that you understand everything that I may be implying because I know for a fact that I do not understand my own validation to what I am saying at the moment.
You need to know me to understand that what I write here does not actually imply that I am living through the emotionalisms that are portrayed in my writing. On the contrary I may be just saying things that come from a deeper chasm, but does not implicate my current state. I am a person who can overcome a lot and consider every path a lesson learnt. Those who cannot break me cannot harm me in anyway because I do not give them implications to scratch the surface of the person I am.
I am not conceited yet I am comfortable with the person I have become. I don’t need the approval of those around me to value my worth. I am content with my life, though it my have not been the life I had expected for myself it sure has turned to my reality.
Excuse my ramble, but as I said this is my space.
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4 comments:
Me and you are a total opposite. Even though I give an impression that says I DONT GIVE A DAMN. I still think I am a sucker for acknowledged compliments.
But thats me, and you are you. We like to live our lives the way we would want to live it but that's not how things go all the time.
And that's when we say DAMN IT :)
:-*
Well written blog. Hope you can give more time and thought.
I'd say we all are suckers when it comes to compliments even though most of us don't show it.
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